How to live like this

How to live like this guys, how is life like this, to live and not be able to socialize with people or find jobs no matter how simple, to remain lonely, how can a person live like this, I don't need money or anything if I can't live like other people, I will never accept to live like this, god this is hell on earth, and I'm not frustrated or anything, I'm just tired of 20 years in the same way, this is beyond extreme, god why