It sucks. It can be so hard. Especially at your age. Do you have *anyone* in your life that you can talk to? Someone that doesn't mock or hurt you? If so, put yourself out there. Trust that person. Let some of this out. As far as the mocking goes, it needs to stop. Sometimes it's just stupidity by other people. In those cases, a simple conversation can stop the mocking. Anyone that won't stop, you cut those people out. Stop engaging with them. They are going to have to work at mocking you. And that's their problem. It's not yours. It gets better. I assure you, that it doesn't just continue to spiral. Some of us have accepted our stutter as a litmus test for people. We classify peers by those that can get past our stutter, and those that can't. We often take some people by surprise. They don't mean to be cruel. Explaining that you don't find it funny is often enough for the people worth knowing.