I rejected a girl because of my stutter

I rejected a girl because of my stutter I probably lost my first and last chance to have a girlfriend. This is going to sound really cheesy, I’m sorry, I don’t know how else to put it. I stutter, and that has caused me horrible social anxiety and a miserable self esteem. A few months ago at school, I noticed that a girl started getting really close to me. Whenever she saw me, she smiled, and she would always follow me around during break time. That gave me a lot of anxiety. But what really made me suspect that she liked me was that one day she tried to hold my hand outside of school. She didn’t know I was a stutterer, so I always avoided her and ignored her. I felt like a piece of trash doing that, but I was simply scared. Over time, she lost interest in me. To this day I don’t know if it was out of pity, since I’m the kind of guy who’s always alone, or if she was truly interested in me. I’m almost 16, and the thought that I’ll live my whole life like this depresses me like hell