Please try not to allow this to affect you too much. I work in a company and have been for 6 years now. My stutter is ridiculously bad to say the least. I present in front of 20 people every Friday and they are all aware of how bad my speech is (no one really says anything and for some who have commented in the past, I don’t give a damn to say the least, I focus on getting the job done as I can’t control the speech but I can control the outcome of my task) Literally takes me 30 seconds to say a word sometimes. It gets to me sometimes and other times I manage it better however I keep thinking of the end goal and of what I am trying to achieve. The more you shy away from your stammer the more it “wins” you need to address it no matter what because that’s the only way you can start becoming desensitised to it and becoming desensitised is the first step to overcoming your stammer. Keep pushing my friend, it is not easy, but you will soon not give it too much attention.