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today’s discussion i’d like to share a story in order to get a feedback or thoughts on this from you guys, because we’re all on the same boat. it’s quite long. today I finally graduated in physics. I’ve already discussed the thesis in front of the committee only (2 professors), but formally another discussion had to be done to the public with a bigger committee (8 professors). I thought there would be 30 people attending the discussion, so like just a couple friends for each person (we were 16 graduating students)… turns out there were 200 persons. This only added another layer of difficulty to my discussion. See, if I have a ‘time limit’ and I have to hurry up I stutter quite a bit (please let me know if it’s also your case). In the aforementioned smaller discussion I had unlimited time so I stuttered less, but today I had three minutes to explain my whole work and yes, I blocked a few times. Moreover, I couldn’t stop to get the ‘confidence’ to properly say those specific words, so I had to stutter through my whole presentation. I was awarded the maximum points for my discussion and my thesis, yet I can’t for the life of me be satisfied with what happened today. What will happen when it’s a master’s thesis discussion of one hour? What if I have to speak with the general public for a prolonged time? I have to admit you guys that I’m always on this sub dispensing good vibes and positive words (that I actually do think), but today when I sat down after my discussion I cried a bit, because I was ashamed of being a stutterer. All the other guys did a great job in clearly explaining their topic, while I had a terrible time trying to do so and because of my stutter I even answered a question from the committee wrong. I feel terrible. Do you ever feel ashamed of being a PWS?