Does anyone feel like they're unable to be their trueselves with a stutter?

Does anyone feel like they're unable to be their trueselves with a stutter? Hey all, Bit of a background before I get into the main topic, but I'm in my late 20s and have had a stutter since I was around 9-10 years old I believe (at least the last 1-2 years of Primary School age-range in the UK). I've no idea how my stutter came about, but what I do know is that over the years it's waxed & waned in it's severity. Some occasions you'd never know I'd have a stutter outside of the odd minor pause, others I can barely string 2-3 words together without long noticeable blocks taking place during speaking. But something that's always been on my mind, and that I've always been extremely conscious about is that I cannot, or don't want to be my trueself when interacting in day to day things. For me, I *love* meeting new people, social interactions, I enjoy the idea of social speaking and was never 'nervous' of doing presentations for example during education or introductions at work. But, due to my stutter it's always on my mind that I will fumble and mess up, or when meeting somebody new I'll be having an 'off' day and their first thoughts will be my stutter etc. I'm witty and always love a good joke... but I very rarely tell them due to always risking the punchline being messed up, so instead just sit quiet and laugh along at other peoples comments. In discussions I want to make my thoughts known, but again... there's little point if there's a chance that I won't even string together a coherent sentence. In work for example, I've always wanted to progress into higher roles with more responsibility and in my early twenties but then I fall short because it either has people managing skills with high volumes of speaking, or interviews/meetings etc and I know I'd just fumble. In my early twenties, I really wanted to serve in the Royal Air Force; I was healthy, young, had good exercising routines, good education and socially outgoing etc etc... but all of that is thrown out of the window just because of one speech defect. It's beyond unfair really :/ Anyone else had similar thoughts in their experience/lives?