I've been there. Early in my high school senior year, I realized a lot. Mainly that I was massively depressed, and that I'd probably carry that with me for a while. I didn't really have anyone to turn to in high school. In college I tried to surround myself with friends, but it took me a good 6 months to find a group that was accepting. They got me through some pretty rough times, suicidal thoughts, etc. After college, I was in a job that I absolutely hated for years, with people who took advantage of me any way they could. I finally left that job and decided to do what I love, working for myself. And I was immensely happier for it. That job forces me to talk to people. But it's about my craft (corporate photographer), so I love it. Yes, I struggle. Yes, I have my bad days. But I have a lot more patience with myself because I'm doing something I enjoy. Depression is still something I struggle with from time to time. I'm still friends with a few people from college, which continues to be kind of a backbone for me when I need it. But instead of going through depression spells every other week, it's more like once a quarter, if that. In terms of the dating scene ... I'm definitely not one to ask there. I tried dating, and failed miserably at it. I was definitely afraid to put myself out there, and at the same time, I was generally happy where I was in life, too. But I know lots of stutterers have found a partner, too. If I can give you one piece of advice, find that community. If there's an NSA regional chapter in your area, go to it (I wish I had one). If there's not, find a hobby that you enjoy, and see if there's any social groups in your area. In terms of the depression stuff, try to get some professional help. I never really found the counselor that was right for me, but I know there are some out there. If you are going to college, most of them have free mental health services that you can take advantage of. Good luck.