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Sudden mild stutter at 17? Alright, I’m 17 and autistic, diagnosed some time before 10. Lately, I’d say about the weekend, I suddenly found myself acting “more autistic”, or in proper terms “unable to mask” anymore. Which is odd, considering I almost always mask to the point even I don’t realise how autistic I am, so it’s very scary yet somewhat freeing to suddenly be myself. But around the time this happened I’ve suddenly developed a very mild stutter, and it’s deeply frustrating because I’ve never had a stutter before and my family will be mad if I ask about it. (They think I fixate on different symptoms and apply them to myself?? Such as adhd, my mother thought I heard about adhd and then fixated and convinced myself I have it. I undoubtedly have undiagnosed adhd and will be getting a diagnosis as soon as I can with her around). Regardless, I feel like I’m faking this stutter? I notice if I’m not paying attention it may stop, but as soon as I notice it’s stopped it starts up again. My family is picking up and it’s starting to scare me, they barely tolerate anything about me (nonbinary, autistic, adhd) and ignore or water it down to be tolerable. I’m not sure how they’d react to a sudden stutter. I’m very very frustrated because it feels as though I could just stop it easily but it’s like a mental slip on a banana in Mario kart, all of a sudden a word gets caught and I have to repeat it, especially “hard” letters like B, P or D. What do I do about this? TL;DR: suddenly acting more autistic and gained a mild stutter, feels like I’m faking but I can’t stop. Help?