I met my favorite artist and stuttered horribly

I met my favorite artist and stuttered horribly I had the chance to go to a Meet & Greet of a singer I have been a fan of for about 10 years. This artist means so much to me it‘s impossible to explain. To make it short, let‘s just say it was a life changing moment I will never forget. When I woke up that day, I knew it wasn‘t gonna be a good speech day. On top of a stutter, I do have other speech and language impairments because of Autism Spectrum Disorder. I cannot tone my voice and I also speak very irregularly rhythmically because I basically do not have a sense of prosody. I was expecting the worse and it went exactly how I thought. It took me about 5 seconds to get my name out and I stuttered on almost every single word. The video makes me so embarrassed I haven‘t been able to watch it to the end and I told my family it was too special to show them when I am just embarrassed by my speech. She was amazing about it. She didn’t interrupt me a single time and waited until I finished every word. But I am just feeling so incredibly embarrassed about it. If I could speak like a normal person, I would have been able to chat a lot more. But because it took me triple the time to get a single word out, I couldn‘t even chat that much and say everything I wanted because the time was short. I am so frustrated with myself and so embarrassed at how badly I sound. I can‘t stop thinking about it. This sucks I just wanted to let it out because I don‘t think there is anyone I can talk with about this in real life because I am so terribly embarrassed I can‘t even begin to talk about it. I try to love myself even with my speech impairments. But this really sucks sometimes.