I get it OP, it’s frustrating. My heart goes out to you. I’m a few years older than you and out of college now. I still often wonder why most people get to speak with little to no difficulties and effort while we don’t. It really is not fair. But we all have challenges in life and I think we need to try to make the most out of them, as hard as that can be at times. I’ve been discussing my own struggles and victories with stuttering on Facebook and have been met with nothing but kindness, support, empathy, and understanding. People don’t solely see me as someone who stutters, they see me as someone who finds the bright side throughout my limitations and challenges. As hard as it may be right now, maybe you can try to have the same attitude and fake it til you make it a bit. I am no longer ashamed of my stutter like I once was, and as a result, I don’t get as many weird looks or judgment. And I always tell people I live a pretty good life and don’t want their pity for me lol. My stutter has improved as I’ve gotten older too and I think the same can be said for you. I’m able to order food now, I teach fitness classes of 15-20+ people with minimal stuttering, and I really stutter when I speak to myself, my family or my bf. Keep your head up, it will be ok!