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Yes, yes, you described it from your point of view. For *you* it is a constant anxiety, a weight, a fear. I'm sure it is for others as well. Even in an "outgoing" country, not everyone can be outgoing. I'm not minimizing how hard it can be for you, just saying that extreme social anxiety can come from different sources. (Don't mean formally diagnosed social anxiety; but rather serious anxiety about social situations.) There are places in the US -- small towns -- where there could be a similarity, the expectation to be social, say hello on the street, tell your business to other people, go to certain social things, and where if you do not do those things, you will be gossiped about. But....you know, there is this sort of individualism here that counteracts that some I think even to a degree in smaller more insular towns, so that you might have more chance of being different and still accepted, or at least not ostracized. On the other hand, of course, there's a terrible history of violence toward and sort of exile of those who are different or seen as a threat. But, anyway, no, we do not have these more rigid cultural/social expectations here.