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I had a phone interview today, I'm well beyond 18, and feel the exact same way. I wrote two pages of notes for a 20 minute call and was able to *maybe* get through 1/4 of it. This was for a senior executive role in higher education and the second I got off the phone I felt like a complete failure. But like /u/shutuppussy said (lol, that's funny to say outloud) I've found the best method to cope with it in that situation is to be upfront, and to be self-aware. One of my talking points in my industry is how important effective communication is, which is entirely true, and one of my go-to lines is stopping a moment to mention how ironic it is that someone who stutters is extolling the virtues of communication. I've always found humor to be an incredibly effective knife through the butter that is my perception of my own stuttering. I remember my first interview for the university I'm with today -- I *knew* I screwed it up. I couldn't be fluent for 10 seconds even though I had experience and knew what I was talking about. Turns out my perception of myself wasn't anywhere close to how people perceived me. It didn't matter that I stuttered. 10 years later I still stutter, especially in high-stress situations like interviews, and I have to constantly remind myself that how I see myself doesn't matter. People don't look down at me just because I stutter -- **I** look down at me because I stutter. I prepared for the interview today. I prepared *a lot* for the interview today. It didn't go to plan and I had several moments of mind-blocking panic. I don't know if I'll get a second interview, but I do know that I was up front about what the panel was about to experience and I purposefully found places to be funny. People remember humor, people remember someone who is self aware and self assured, regardless of how you see yourself. I often call job interviews the 'great equalizer' because people who don't normally stutter suddenly can't get a word out to save their lives. Interviews are hard, for everyone, and you're 18, so you'll have a lot of opportunities to develop your own strategies to deal with them. Put yourself in those uncomfortable situations and you will become better at handling them. You may not get this job, and you may not get the next job you're interviewing for tomorrow. But people who don't stutter *also* don't get hired for jobs, *all the time*. This doesn't make you special. The person who doesn't hire you won't sit on their porch later in life remembering not hiring that one kid who stuttered. You'll be fine, I promise.