Well, first of all, "subconscious" isn't a well-defined term. That's why I mention the model thing. Lots of non-fruitful things floating around in that regard. We shouldn't be "self-conceptualizing" in that way. Also, you may not interpret the above as self-faulting - but _I_ do. I've seen it before. The struggle we have is not supposed to be with ourselves - we're not fixing our failure - we're instead supposed to grapple with the disability, framed as such. There's lots to be said about how we see ourselves and how we conceive of our challenges. I'm on this track that I'm presenting here, because I want us all to think in healthy ways about ourselves. Call it "years of experience" or "insight", if you will. I just don't want anyone to risk internalizing their challenge as an error on their part. And we can supplement that with lots of positive vibes too. It's not something I tend to do a lot, though. That's probably just me being jaded - and I certainly struggle with self-image as well. It's very common, but I refuse to submit to it, so I try to reinforce healthier ways of thinking by sharing them with others.