I am also going trough a shitty time right now. My stutter has been really bad lately and i am struggling with the depression/laziness that comes from unemployment. But it gets better. I have started going to group meetings with other stutterers and i will start seeing a therapist next week. I would recommend you to do the same if you have the option. Maybe you could write your life story here, it feels great to get it of your chest and you might get some more specific advice.