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I can’t do it anymore I’m so tired. I’m so so tired. Not being able to speak fluently is quite literally ruining my life and stifling my potential. Am I ever going to find a significant other? Will I find a job that can pay my rent? Will I ever put a mortgage on a house? I don’t see any of this happening for me. On top of this I’m dealing with trauma and struggling to let go of past mistakes I’ve made which have hurt my family and friends. I want to get better. I want to be happy. I thought I was on the right path recently but right now.. I feel so overwhelmed. I constantly feel like I’m letting everyone down because I’m not happy. My friends tell me to just speak up! And so do my family, and have more confidence! But I cannot strive for perfection. I have to find my own way. I’m currently living off my parents and I feel awful about it. I’m 21 (F) btw. And also, I’ve never spoken to anyone about my stutter before except one friend. Me and my family don’t talk about it although I’ve stuttered abysmally in front of them before. I just want to tell everyone “oh yeah I stutter and it’s so annoying”. I feel like I don’t get taken seriously. But I know the only way I will is if I become honest with the people close to me about how severely this is affecting my life.