I think being afraid to speak is a phase anyone who stutter have been through. You need to understand that if you someone has in issue with it it’s their fault not yours. For me, to get over that fear I started going to different coffee shops( I love coffee) and started conversations with strangers. I would have a long deep conversation with those people, I never took any of their contacts. Just I used to see them a lot at the coffee shop. I also attended stuttering support groups, I met professors and teachers who stutter. I think it will serve you well to talk to people who have been through what you’re going through. You just have to understand that stuttering is part of who you’re now, you need to learn to live with it and not let it stop you from living, if you need any other advice you can DM me. Best of luck my friend