In my opinion, that is being delusional. Stuttering for you is obviously a problem as you wrote this essay. I'm not saying to make it your personality but you have to accept it. You need to learn to accept reality. Life is imperfect and unfair sometimes you get the short end of the stick. All of us here have it at some level with some shitty experiences that will stick with us through the day we die. It is still not the end of the world. Best way if we're being honest is to make your stutter better. I have not seen a professional since my very early days. Biggest things that helped my stutter was confidence (said it before but alot of the issues with a stutter comes from caring about how people view you or how you sound) + reading aloud + speaking more. You need to speak more not less remember that. If there is toastmasters join, just to practice speaking in front of people. Your goal here is to improve your stutter to a milder level. You will always have a stutter but it does not need to hurt you at this level. It may still hurt you at some level but the worst you can do is fail and strangers look at you funny. Did you contact the disability services of the school you went to?