First, I'm so sorry for your loss. Even as a teenager, it certainly limits me from so many opportunities like applying for jobs or internships and even hanging out with people because I know I'll just humiliate myself from stuttering. I constantly wonder how my future is going to be like because I limit myself so much to reach my full potential. Just like you, I also get extremely nervous in zoom calls or whenever I have to say my order but knowing that there are people out there especially in this group is so comforting so thank you for the advice and just know you aren't alone either!