You're 33, your life is not over yet. Your insecurity is your biggest obstacle, not your stutter. People with stutters find love, people with physical and mental disabilities find love, people who are not conventionally attractive find love, etc. Lots of women will judge you for stuttering, lots of women will not. Lots of women will judge you for having paid for sex in the past, lots of women will not. Focus on the ones who will not. You are being hurt by the fact that you think no one will love anyone who isn't perfect and without flaw.