Yes I feel that way too. I couldve been a doctor or something if it wasnt for my rediculous stutter. Everyone makes speaking sound so easy. Okey, do you remember if it did something for your speech at all? Paxil made me very outgoing but it made me unable to orgasm. Paxil is the best ssri I have tried for my speech anxiety. Im on Zoloft right now, been on it for 3 weeks and my speech is at a whole new level of akwardness. Fillerwords is a must sometimes, sometimes we just cant be quiet, that would be even more weird. But I really think you should get some help before you develop fear of going to your own job. Im about to start going to a psychologist as I feel Speech therapy is a little pseudoscience.