I also feel so jealous of them, like I would have not missed any opportunities if my speech was perfect, I love to talk to people but this stutter stops me from interacting and participating in different things , I can't even say present when the lecturer calls my name for attendance, can't even say my name properly w/o stuttering, ik all of them laugh at me. It frustrates me to the core , I say it's just in my brain , but no , i stutter even while I'm calm , I just can't deal with this everyday, ik my friends are with me just because they sympathize with me and nothing else.