I feel the same way, but I don't think I'd be helping you by writing out my commiserations. I think it will be most productive for you to adopt the mindset that it is yourself rather than your stutter that has hindered you in life. If you, as you say, truly believe that you can do anything you set your mind to then go out and do it despite your difficulty. When you achieve your goal you can feel double the pride then. Dont stagnate. I know it's hard. There are times where I work from home because I can't take going into the office and having to talk during meetings, but don't let stuttering stop you from acquiring the standard of life you want, or finding ways to do the things you love.