I don't stutter because I'm nervous! Fuck!

I don't stutter because I'm nervous! Fuck! I had girl reject me because "I don't have confidence". Apparently she thought I was stuttering because I was nervous and that meant lack or confidence. No, fuck. Nervousness has never been a trigger for my stutter. I just do. It doesn't matter when or what. I stutter talking to close family members, I stutter when I get excited about something, I stutter when reading a text aloud to myself. I never stutter when I'm super nervous public speaking. I was excited talking about common interests, not nervous. Stuttering doesn't make me nervous either. I just stutter and I learned to embrace it as part of myself. I simply never gave a fuck about it. I've been like this for years now. I could never relate to people in this subreddit because my stutter didn't really bother me. I never knew people judged me this much for stuttering. Fuck stuttering. As if I needed more reasons to get rejected.