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Advice? I (19F) have a severe stutter and have been home from college ever since spring break, so about mid-late March. I’m living with my grandmother, and never had a problem until recently. She has been talking to my dad about me getting a job, despite knowing about the COVID pandemic. The semester ended in early May, and since then I have been unemployed since my work study on-campus job ended. My friends are also currently unemployed, some are receiving benefits from the government and others are just dealing with money problems. The reason why I haven’t gotten a job (although I have applied) was because a.) my stutter has been significantly worse, to the point where my grandma has confronted me about it and asked why, b.) there’s a pandemic going on, and she is always venting to me about how everyone in the house is “immunocompromised”, c.) I’m genuinely afraid of starting a new job because my stutter has been the worst it’s ever been in years and d.) I don’t know if any places will hire me if I’m only going to be going back to school (out of state) in a couple months. The only thing that kind of supports her side of things was that she wanted me to be job searching during the semester and be ready to start once it ended, but I never did because of the aforementioned reasons and because I was struggling with remote learning/passing my classes. I feel terrible because it feels like I’m just a bum in her house and I don’t know what to do. She isn’t understanding my point of view as a PWS, and never tries to. She expects me to “power through it”, but that is not how stuttering works. I’ve tried relearning old techniques but they don’t help when I need them to. I guess I just want some input from other PWS on what I should do in this situation.. It’s hard to explain to her at the risk of being accused of “making excuses” but should I talk to her?? Put on my big girl boots and just keep trying to find a job??