Anyone else decide talking is simply not worth it?

Anyone else decide talking is simply not worth it? For the last 6 months, I've been backpacking and staying in hostels so I'm constantly meeting new people. I've been trying to take advantage of this by desensitizing myself to stuttering through exposure. Constantly stuttering in front of new people over and over again. And it's been relatively successful I suppose - I don't really feel too much fear in most day to day situations anymore. I've also realized that most people don't seem to mind too much for the most part, which is nice. ​ The fear I previously had of "embarrassing myself", however, has been replaced by frustration. As someone with a moderate to severe stutter + a voice disorder + cluttering, it's so exhausting expressing myself, every little thing takes so much effort, that it just doesn't seem worth it anymore... ​ I've always been a loner, but I used to at least *try* to make an effort before because I used to feel guilty about "not trying". But after the past 6 months, I've now realized that it's just not worth the effort to communicate. I've pretty much embraced being antisocial. I don't speak to anyone anymore unless necessary, I keep to myself whenever I can, and I'll usually choose to be silent and inconvenienced than speaking up to point out a problem or concern. ​ I'm not really depressed, just accepted that the effort to value ratio of communicating is not worth it in 90% of situations. Anyone else reach the same conclusion?