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I know I'm a little late, but as a person who stutters, I have a lot of feelings about Bill Denbrough from It. He was actually the first fictional character I had ever encountered who's stutter wasn't portrayed as a negative trait. I had a weird disconnect with my stuttering for most of my life, where I knew I had a speech impediment, but never identified it as stuttering. I think this was because I had never met anyone else who stuttered, and had never seen it portrayed in media. I mostly have blocks rather than repetitions which seem to be a little less well know among non stutterers. I actually remember talking to a therapist when I was 15 and trying to explain my frustration that I could never say things exactly how I wanted, and my fear of speaking in class. This therapist told me if I really wanted to say something I should just be able to, mistaking my speech impediment for anxiety I guess. Reading It was the first time I encountered someone who understood my experience and it was incredible to feel validated in my struggles. I think his stutter in the movies is portrayed well, and is pretty accurate to my experience at least. How his stutter becomes more obvious when he is emotional or in his own head really resonates with me. How he is still the one that the others look to for direction and leadership really inspired me. The scene in the bookstore in It: Chapter 2 where Bill struggle to say "bike" while the cashier tries to guess what he's saying until Bill yells, "fucking bike!" was hilarious. I definitely find that cursing helps me get unstuck on a word, and I could really relate to his frustration. Sorry for the rant, but I love Bill. Hope this helps :)