This is actually the worst

This is actually the worst It hurts when i try to talk and nothing comes out or i move my body in this odd way i just want to talk to same way other people talk and it hurts when people laugh cause quite frankly i cant blame them i look silly when i do cause how cant you talk at this point i might die with the few friends i have now cause i doubt ill ever muster up enough courage to meet anyone new fuck this shit man