Hey buddy. Don't get yourself down about stuttering. Just think of all the ways its a positive too. Sure it impacts our ability to communicate. But anytime we can speak fluently just remember the feeling you get where you are just so damn ecstatic it went well. When i have a good day speaking wise the feeling i get is better then any drug or great situation could ever make me feel. Look at it that way. No other person could get such a great confidence boost through just speaking fluently alone like we can do. Look at the things it has made you stronger at. Have to use word alternatives? GREAT! It helps with creative writing and expanding vocabulary faster then those who don't have to. Get stuck in a public situation? Maybe you feel embarrassed. Why though? You literally are getting through a situation just like everyone else but your playing on hard mode while the other guys are playing on easy. Your winning pal. Remember that. I dont know how old you are so i don't know what you do for work but i spent years in sales. But now i got a job where speaking isn't as frequent and i can excel at what i do. Keep on keepin on man!