I can relate. In HS life sucked. Even most of my jobs I feel stuck in my position. I’m damn good at what I do but communication is an issue and especially in corporate America having a communication issue is fucking terrifying. (I’m not saying it’s a bad thing because I don’t know how managers and CEO’s think) but to me it’s terrifying knowing that if I want to move up I have to be able to communicate effectively. So I get it. I have bad anxiety that honestly I never really understood I had. And after learning about it I’ve kind of hyper fixated on stuttering causes and treatments. As well as anxiety treatments and triggers. Which is probably a sign of something but in my opinion gaining that knowledge actually kind of helped me personally because I understand what happens internally / subconsciously. But no idea why.