Do NOT wait for next year. Do NOT let your stutter run your life. Go after this. Did the leave a voicemail? Reach out to them. TODAY! YOU WILL REGRET THIS THE REST OF YOUR LIFE if you don't act on it. Shying away from things is no way to live. I know that it's hard. And that I'm not expressing any empathy. I feel for you, truly. But I feel you're making a terrible decision right now. Please, act today to correct this.