Hey OP, first of all, I'm so sorry you're going through all of this sh\*t. As a fellow stammerer, I really, really get it. I have an opinion that might be unpopular, but if your stammering is causing you so much trouble and seriously decreasing your quality of life, what about going mute and typing your thoughts on your phone or some other way? There are people who become mute for whatever reason and still do well. Stammering comes with so much unnecessary trauma and pain...