Whenever I have a really embarrassing moment when I stutter, I can't move, i get all sweaty and I feel like I'm about to cry from embarrassment. Even though basically no one cares about my stutter, I feel like everyone's laughing at me when I talk. It's frustrating being the only one that stutters in my family and I feel like I'm cursed or something. I've developed some fear of talking and it's turned me into a HEAVY introvert. When I come home I always cry and ask myself why it had to be me out of millions of people. And have suicidal thoughts and thoughts of self harming to make it feel better. I feel like people would think I'm crazy to have those thoughts because of that. There also isn't any cure for stuttering which makes it worse..