First off don’t be ashamed of your sexuality. You love porn so indulge as long as you aren’t hurting anyone and no one in the video is being hurt. Stuttering gets easier when you just accept it. I went through my whole life not being in a relationship because of my stutter. Fast forward and I learned that chicks back in high school thought I was hot but I never gave any of them the time of day because of my stutter. I find it helps if you mention you stutter in the beginning of a conversation. I’m 32 and am happily married. Don’t let your stutter define you. Therapy really helped me. I suggest you hook up with a stuttering group around you and seek a speech pathologist. It’s the greatest thing I’ve ever done in my life. Lastly lay off the drugs. Weed and anything that alters your mind enhances anything inside there. If you’re just a little paranoid you’re going to be that x10.