Honestly, I can and can't imagine how you feel. We all take it in a different way.. but one thing is for sure- it hurts and you don't deserve to hear that. That's not true. I have series of traumas made by mom; she used to yell at me for stuttering, correct me, shout: talk slower when I was just a kid.. she was embarrased of me stuttering in front of her friends and family. It was just awful and still is. But you have to know and believe that you're much stronger than anyone will know because you struggle every day from the beginning, god knows how much and only you know actually how much that hurts and what a burden that is. So what if you can't order food? I can't do it and I made peace with that, at least for now. And that's okay. Just accept it. You can't do everything and why should you? Recently I had to call the bank to give them out some information about my account (goodness what a trauma, ha?) so my roommate who always helps me out in such situations called them and I wrote down everything she has to say and answers to all potential questions.. but that's fine. It's fun and it works out. Such moments go away and that's how you build up a relationship with people who really care about you. On the other hand, my roommate is terribly suspicious of our neighbors and if anyone's at the door she won't open it. That's when I jump in and do that. Stay strong and surround yourself with people who really try to understand you and truly accept you. We can't wait for situation to get better. We simply have to be stronger. Peace!