> every single thing i do is a decisnion of my stutter, not me. One piece of advice I regularly give here is to never let your stutter make your decisions for you. Allowing your stutter to dictate your path is more frustrating than the stutter itself. Lose the anger. You're only hurting yourself. You might think it's your only source of warmth, but it just serves to burn away at you. Treat yourself better. And treat others better. Do so and I promise you things will look up. You need to grow up. You sound much closer to someone starting high school than university.