I stutter because I don’t want to say anything.

I stutter because I don’t want to say anything. I’ve been working on my stuttering since 2015. I’ve tried to know why I stutter. At first and for a long time, I couldn’t look at myself at the moment I stutter because it’s so humiliating, I just want this embarassing moment to go away as fast as I can by saying what I don’t stutter. But recently, It started to be clear for me. I stutter because I don’t want to say anything but I try to say something because of some kind of pressure like ‘If I don’t react to them, they may see me weird.. it’s like group pressure(Is it right?) or I can say it’s world pressure. If I have a powerful mind, if I am a kind of person who make up my mind hard when I do things, I carefully am sure I am not gonna stutter anymore. Some of you can say, what are you talking about? you are saying you are not the owner of your mind? you don’t even control your mind? you can’t do what you want? I say, no I can’t, I know it sounds negative. but I want to tell the truths ‘to myself’(not to you guys) Because I’ve been fooling myself with the rules of the world. And there are the books which resonates me, maybe the real me. ‘No longer Human’, ‘The Strangers’ If some of you guys read these books and feel like ‘oh my god, why am I in the book? who wrote me so precisely?’ Then I want you to reconsider the stuttering.