Your speech disability does not define you, you must do everything in your power to try to tame both your stuttering and the demons in your head.. This isnt easy. Only you can make it better, specially since the mental aspect plays such a big part of what you're going through and will continue to go through, youre just starting your journey. 1 out of 1000 people that want to be a Navy Seal becomes a Navy Seal. There are other options in the military that you can go for. Study programming and write code like no one has written before, study engineering and work on amazing projects. Become an architect and leave your stamp in the world. You're just getting started and i wish i could tell you that its going to get easier but ITS NOT, there are people without speech disabilities begging for change at the light.. Keep your head up and look at life straight in the eyes and dont let it break you, it's a blessing to be here, stuttering or not! You will find a partner (odds say many partners actually), you will find good friends who appreciate you, you will become successful if you study and work hard, its all up to you.