This post breaks my heart. I know exactly how you feel. I am a 46 year old female stutterer. It does hold me back. Please don’t blame yourself! This is completely out of your control. If there are people in your life who ignore you or don’t include just just because of your speech, they should be ashamed of themselves. There are people out there who will accept you and love you as you are. I’m sorry you’re going thru this. Keep your head up!! I struggle with anxiety and it is intensified with my stutter. But I have had many many years of dealing with this and the older I get, the less I care what people think. If you ever need someone to talk to, hit me up. Please don’t give up on yourself. There are people out there who way more worse off then we are. Hugs!♥️