Theres friends, people you meet online and such, and then theres physical/irl friends that you can do stuff with. I have a lot of the former, but practically none of the latter. They're either too busy/don't reach out/ignore me, so at the end of the day I just said "fuck em" i'm gonna do what I want even if I might not have the amount of social interaction I desire. It doesn't matter because at the end of the day all you got is you, and spending time on myself to be the best possible version of myself I can be is the way I want to live my life until I meet some decent people. Growing up an only child, and with an extremely small/constantly bickering family also didn't exactly help me make friends. So don't judge yourself because you can't make friends well, many people understand where you're coming from, and everybody has weaknesses, even the people who make a lot of friends have weaknesses.