Even If i talk with someone nothing not can help me they can't take it away from me, Just I'm tired with months staying in my room all days because of this shit, I'm seeing my friends of high school they are going to college and they starting to teach any language, and I still can't say my name, I can't live like this all my life trying to hide from conversations and talking with people, I'm depressed with months almost one year, they say do not make big decisions about temporary pain and this pain of my is for all life.