July 27th and 28th, 2023—276 and 277 days from now since I wrote this text.

July 27th and 28th, 2023—276 and 277 days from now since I wrote this text. July 27th: Hi! First of all, I am an introverted student, and it was our late-summer vacation. I just finished house chores, bible study, reading, exercising, et cetera. I do not have that many friends; my “message” app is dry; no one is messaging me after school. 5–10 classmates messaged me before trying to reach out to me for help in calculus, chemistry, statistics, et cetera, but now I feel like they’re just using me. I’ve spent 30+ days now improving myself, but I feel that no one’s there for me the whole time; it's just me fighting alone. July 28th: Hi! First and foremost, I am a grownup teenager who is an INFJ and has social anxiety and stutters. When I was a child, I was that shy kid who was so well behaved that the day would pass that I did not talk to anyone, not even my parents. Because of that, I lost a lot of opportunities (e.g., studying at a science high school). I also always get an average grade of 96, or 97%. I sometimes have a chance to get a 98% because of my high score in summative and quarterly tests (when sometimes I perfect almost all of them) in school. I always stutter a lot, so that’s why it's hard to get that 98%. My grade in performance tasks is very affected; it is almost half of the grade, so I always got 96 or 97%. I think I developed my stutter because, as I mentioned earlier, I was that kid who was super shy in the first place. Now, because of that, I struggle to talk to anyone, and in the past year, 2020 (pandemic days), I am not 100% sure, but I think I developed “social anxiety.” Now, on my late-summer vacation, I was just in my own house, improving myself alone because no one will invite me to hang out or even talk to. But you may ask, “Am I the one who should ask first because I am the needy one?” Yes, I try to talk to a lot of people, greet them, and message them, but I think I’m just causing annoyance for them, and I feel unappreciated for that.