Is say the majority of us feel this way. Every stutterers has felt this way at some point. At some point you're going to get sick fog hiding and decide its better to be yourself and express yourself than hide for fear of people laughing. I'd say look up if there's a stammering association or support group near you and go meet other people who stutter. You don't want to be with people you don't feel you can be yourself around, stutter and all.