You're taking the first step by talking about it. Make a plan. Keep taking steps to make things better. Your realization that your stutter is controlling you is key. IMO, the control we give our stutter is worse than the act of stuttering. Set yourself a goal. Start small. Once a day, when you realize you are letting your stutter make a decision for you, *don't.* Make the decision that you *want*. Deny your stutter the power and take it back for yourself. I ain't saying it's going to be easy. But damnit, this is your life. Start moving it in the direction you want it to go. If you can do it once a day for a week or a month, you can do it twice a day. You can build on your successes. And seek out speech therapy. Many of us have tried speech therapy in the past without success. But the key is to try again. Try a different therapist or program. When you fall off your bicycle, you don't say "I just can't ride a bicycle." You get back on and try again. If you're having mental health issues, seek help for that as well. We *all* struggle from time to time. If you have a physical injury or illness, you would see a doctor for it. Mental health is no different. Your college counseling office might should be able to help you get started. They have access to mental health resources. Or you family / primary doctor. We're pulling for you. We really are.