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vent im at a low point again, what a surprise lol. im currently staying at my dads because i moved out of a place and need to wait a month until i move into the next. its only been one night but i cant spit out a single word to anyone in the house. in work, i struggle to speak to most people but the people who im close with are never working at the same time as me. my stutter is getting worse and worse with the girlfriend and my friends. i dont know what to do anymore. my stutter started getting worse at the start of the year and i thought it would just be a rough month like usual but no. this is just going on and on. im the point where i just cant be bothered talking, its too much effort. i cant be bothered tensing all my body to force out words. cant be bothered being out of breathe after saying a single word. i about to buy my first house and i cant wait, even though its for the wrong reasons. but i cant wait to just be away from people. i dont need to make painful small talk to my flatmates when walking to the toilet. it will be peaceful and i can just hide away from the world. im at the point where ive just accepted that this is probably a permanent thing. all my families stutters got better with age but mine seems to be going the other direction