I understand. I sometimes doubt myself but I quickly snap out of it and keep pushing forward to be better. If you're a good person, you are worthy of love and success in life. We sometimes can't control our speak but we can always control our self esteem. Youve gone through many trials in life just to get to this point with a handicap, while many others would have broken down long ago, you kept pushing forward. Stay positive and never doubt that you're worthy. If anyone says other wise.. tell em to go fu*k themselves Much love