It makes so much sense to me! I to am a lifelong stutterer and have had and still have many of the same feelings as you...feeling inferior, like an outsider, not accepted etc. I am a bit older, 40...and I will note that as I have gotten older, I care less and the result is less of a negative impact on my life. However, the deep rooted childhood feelings are still there. For example, a wave of anxiety will wash over me if I ponder being alone with someone and an emergency situation arises and I have to call 911 and their life is in my hands...I won’t be able to say anything. The 911 operator will yell at me and make it worse. I’ll just have to spell everything. This pretend person will die due to my impediment...who does that?!? Stutterers. Stutterers do that. And it’s only something other stutterers can relate to and understand. I hope you find this sub helpful and cathartic as I have, just knowing you are not alone, if nothing else.