postr/StutterAugust 23, 2023

Easily offended and/or extremely insecure?

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Easily offended and/or extremely insecure? Hey, I've been stuttering for as long as I can remember. I recently found a stuttering meme about a stuttering phone number/hotline/I don't remember and it had a lot of "t-t-t-t" and so on, ridiculous faces/grimaces and notes like "calls m-m-might be e-ex-ex-extremely long". Almost everyone found that hilarious but I was not able to feel entertained for even half a second. I actually felt sick and really offended by this because all I saw was how people (worse: non-stutterers) make fun of stuttering or assume what stuttering is and feels like. Next example: I've imagined talking to someone else who stutters. I thought my mind would go to "omg, someone who understands me and who I can share my experiences with" but I'd still feel awkward, helpless and ...not safe, strangely. Has my social anxiety reached a point where I take everything related to stuttering as a personal attack? I believed I have almost accepted stuttering as part of myself, I am just about to be proud of it. Does anyone feel similar? Is this my anxiety/horrible sense of self-worth or maybe even a response to trauma-like experiences (don't think so but don't whant to exclude it)? I'd greatly apprechiate your opinions and experiences!

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Emotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

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Shame & EmbarrassmentAnxiety & Social JudgmentIdentity & Self-Perception