I've lived that life before. If you want to do one thing to improve your life get off of the forums. Lookism, SlutHate, incels.me, /r9k/, socialanxietyforum, r/ForeverAlone are all trash forums and you know it. All they do is complain all day, they get boring as shit after a while. I think I read on a thread somewhere that people who spend most of their time on forums crave social interaction. The anonymous forum atmosphere is kinda like socializing in a way like that. If people find you weird so be it. Get an autistic friend first. Maybe together you both get a slightly get a less autistic friend. Slowly inch your way out of this shit. Friends and girls are a lot like money. It's easy to make friend and meet girls when you have friends and know girls beforehand. Its hard as shit starting from scratch. It's a lot like being born poor. The people who can beat poverty realize that they are gonna have to start with nothing and crawl their way out of it. They realize that complaining is useless because nobody in society really cares about the struggles of men. You have to crawl your way out. You need to find the most autistic hobby or interest you have and join a real life group for it. Model Airplanes, Magic the Gathering, cooking literally anything. 4chan has a lot of other boards that I started going to other than /r9k/ and to be honest I've been a lot better. I stay mostly on /fit/ or /pol/ or /ck/ now. I'm not gonna give you generic self help advice like go lift, get a haircut, join improv or some shit. Just get off of Lookism, SlutHate, incels.me, /r9k/, socialanxietyforum, r/ForeverAlone. The only people on that edge of the internet will commit slow suicide one day and we know it. You know the pit from the Batman movie series? Those forums are the online equivalent of the pit and only the strong willed are able to get out of the pit and live a normal life.