Hey OP, Thanks for posting this and to echo others comments, you aren't alone, we've had these moments and we will have these moments in the future too - and it's OK to get down about them. As you've mentioned this isn't your first breakdown, so remember that you've got back up before and so you can do it again. On the bright side, you also have at least two things going for you right now that will make some other subscribers quite envious - a best friend and a girl who seems to be genuinely interested in you. Way to go! ​