last year i tried out for a job a at menial corporate job remotely, and because of my first interview in 4 years plus stuttering i didnt get a second interview. i was also interviewing from china as a USA citizen, which means my skype/textnow didnt hold up a signal. it was so discouraging. 3\~ months later i HAD to get a job. i was running from the largest company in china after 3 years of torture and didnt have money saved to resume supporting a wife and 3 children (2 step kids). i took every advantage to get my first ever remote job (my dream was to always work remotely), i set up a decent headset, a whole room to myself etc to focus. i got a first (of 4/5) round interview that last 3 months from february to april going well. most of the programming interviews went like: we are pretending to code with you but in reality are watching you intently without doing anything. i didnt know that at first and by the end when i figured it out, made a roleplaying joke like this is a RP scenario while finishing my frontend and having time to spare volunteering on the redux/react backend. i wasnt cocky overconfident, but with 19 years experience since 11 yrs old, i understood what framework i applied for and made sure i was at least a notch better at it than the team. yes, my face turned red until they felt like bursting when saying simple sentences. but after knowing the team, i learned to be more comfortable and switch to easier ways to say things based on what syllables i can produce better. after about 10 Zoom meetings i got pretty comfortable and 99% no longer fear meetings. i have also worked in corporations like korean car companies where it's hard half the time and the other half i try to say something smart in 3 sentences or less. but i have had an indian woman at a mortgage company laughing at me, later landing a sweet banking job. an online corp not giving me a second call (due to paralyzing stuttering), to an awesome modern online job where I pushed myself to like and love my teammates like friends before meetings. They are very lovable, so why shouldnt I love them? And if I can enjoy their being that much, why cant I talk to them at least as easily as I talk to a family member (10-20% stuttering)? this is legit my first post on reddit after so many years of lurking, and thats because your demoralizing experience gives me some kind of... relatableness? i am not at the end of my stuttering journey (since 5 yrs old until now 29). but i also want to share a tip that reduced 75% of my stuttering. i moved to china to be a CTO of a VR startup. it didnt work out, but i met my wife and had beautiful kids. i am also part Vietnamese and Chinese along with Caucasian. this is relevant because: the way I cured 70+% of my stuttering was this very moment! in china I wanted to be the TikTok equivalent of a known streamer (on kuaishou). after dancing and basic tiktok ideas, I decided that food (cooking/eating) was fine for me... one night i decided to do my first speaking mukbang video. this was surprisingly intense. it took me 4 hours to utter one sound at 3am, i constantly ran to my wife in bed hoping someone would force me into being confident. i began with talking to myself at the wall. then i tried one intro, and then 2, 3, 8 failed intros. eventually i was able to release a dozen successful videos in english then honed my broken chinese a total of 5000 subs in a month. but the followers arent what this is about. since then, my stuttering became 20% of what i normally experience. i stutter speaking to my wife, and that went down the same amount. I honestly think it is about balls. having so much balls you are willing to show your tears to haters. having so much want to become better, that you are willing to fight for it no matter the potential pain. the more it hurts, on purpose, the more you prove to yourself you are a hero. stuttering can only exist in fear. i will grow my chinese subs if only to cure my oppressive problem. and i hope at least one sentence in this post served you some insight. i only grew when my fears forced me into two forked roads: broke on the street or somewhat confident and making money from sh\*\*\*y streaming + a day job. god speed OP